DAMN, I get so mad at myself! I wasted another day! So unproductive. I can’t get back the day I lost. Why am I so tired all the time!! Medication restraint keeps me confined. It slows me down…brain lock down. Some days I can hardly move. And u wonder why 50% of people with bipolar aren’t taking their meds!?!? Quality of life is compromised for quantity of lethargy! I could go off these bipolar meds and take the chance of possible destruction but I know in my heart I will not survive another episode. So I continue the daily fight to keep my eyes wide open until I have to raise the white flag and succumb to the dream state.